Afterthoughts

Scintilla

Afterthoughts

Afterthoughts

At The Pier

At The Pier

A Sense Of Loss

A Sense Of Loss

Lightdark

Lightdark

Sol29

Sol29

short story
last lunch
little man
in celebration of life
sogno e incendio
emily
the perfect wife
love is forever
evil smile
scintilla
in my fears
I miss the ground
two monkeys
the anger song
encounter
she
wherever you are
paralysed
afterthought
a new start
the anger song
two monkeys
some warmth
into this chill

fading silently
tender claim
my apology
constant contrast
winter will come
about butterflies
and children
places remained
the misplay
from silence to noise
someone starts
to fade away

kites
lightdark

cold afterall
like the elephant?
you said 'I am...'
clouds
in the white air
wearing lies on your lips
the child's game
the moment she knew
waves of time
overloaded
the broken parts
idle end
hope for the future
sol29

idae14
the red song
the world is outside




Scintilla


short story


last lunch


little man
You arrive, I wait
You say, I stay here

This love, falling
The start, failing
Our lives, sleeping

Awake, drowning
You leave, smiling
I’ll wait here, hiding
As soon as I leave
this prison you made
I can feel again
the shape of things
The singing of birds
the blue in the sky
Now I can see
how small you are
Not knowing why or for who
I pushed myself so far

The last time I saw your face I was going away
taking with me what you betrayed
You stopped me and gave me back the lunch for that day
as if that was some kind of comic play
The first thing you thought about was all in that sack
the last and only thing you gave me back
Laughing in tears I drove around and then back home
knowing that for you it was already all gone

I tried and I tried
Believe me I died
so many times..
You want me to obey
but you never defy
your inner voice denied
Now I know what you always knew
your feelings were an illusion
all the way through

The last time I saw your face I was going away
taking with me what you betrayed
You stopped me and gave me back the lunch for that day
as if that was some kind of comic play
The first thing you thought about was all in that sack
the last and only thing you gave me back
Laughing in tears I drove around and then back home
knowing that for you it was already all gone
She laid down naked on the lawn
He knew they were safely out of sight
They made love at night

They used to hide in a barn over the hill
running hand in hand across the fields
screaming their lungs out for the thrill

The little man was sitting alone, in the corner across the room
She thought he was a mountain, she hoped this time it was all true
She waited there for him to come back, smiling in the dark

Hands never tired of sensual caresses
The hay hiding their wispered voices
Ticking time until dawn

He spent hours playing silly jokes
Building up their imaginary worlds
She gazed in awe

The little man is sitting alone, in a corner across the room
He thought he was a mountain, he thought that was all true
She waited there for him to come back, hiding in the dark
That little voice flowing in, but he knows this time is all an act


in celebration of life


sogno e incendio


emily
You just don't see the abundance of love
I have inside
In celebration of life
Ho steso la mia pelle sulla strada
e ho lasciato camminarci la sera
con le ombre delle case
trafitte dalla pioggia
e i deserti di luce alle finestre

Sul mio ventre
nel mio canto
sul mio pianto
nel mio legno
più secco è dentro
più sogno e incendio

Il fuoco dormiva nella pietra
e scarafaggi sui miei sogni di vetro
Garcia intrecciava ricami di parole
come dita veloci sulla cetra.
Le smorfie delle case
trafitte dalla pioggia
coi denti di luce
alle finestre

Sul mio ventre
nel mio canto
sul mio pianto
nel mio legno
più secco è dentro
più sogno e incendio
Emily I’m in trouble
can't get these thoughts out of my head
Emily I’m in trouble
time stole my strength and lightly fled
Em you know I struggle
holding myself together through the storms
Em I'm seeing double
don't leave me here alone

Step out tonight and look up at the stars
We could share the same sky once more even if we're apart
I know it was ages ago
I'm afraid you won't find me here anymore
for I'm so ashamed of what I've become


the perfect wife


love is forever


evil smile
You quickly got married and had a kid
Even before I realised I had nothing but this sting
What hurts the most is the memory of that beautiful night
back home late from the airport after a long flight

I wonder if you wake up at night
If guilt is even for a moment a feeling you have to fight
Are you proud of your destructive appetite?
You now live your perfect life
Redeeming yourself as the perfect wife
I wonder if you ever wake up at night
If guilt was even for a moment a feeling you had to fight
Are you proud in your destructive appetite?
You now live your perfect life
A break for your mind as you play the perfect wife

It was cold and we fell asleep face to face
that's the last time I remember your warm embrace
In anger and hate you always perpetuate
I now lay back in salt, aware of each and every fault

This morning I walked down the riverside
Where we used to walk to escape
I waited for you with a bittersweet smile
you destroyed what we called home and everything inside

You know your outer beauty will not last
blinding others from your hidden past
I choose to trust your eyes when you cried for the pain you gave
more than your eyes' indifference when proud of your own gain
You plied me with promises so many times
Carefully wiping away all my tears
They were too much even for you to bear
So you lied till the day you disappeared
when you saw this time I left for real

I came to you without my selfish side of things
Believing in you, unaware of being unaware
I didn't dare to imagine what you dared
what have you done with your sordid affair

I wonder if you wake up at night
If guilt is even for a moment a feeling you have to fight
Are you proud of your destructive appetite?
You now live your perfect life
Redeeming yourself as the perfect wife
I wonder if you ever wake up at night
If guilt was even for a moment a feeling you had to fight
Are you proud in your destructive appetite?
You now live your perfect life
A break for your mind as you play the perfect wife
From a void of presence
From a void of time
From a void of love
From a void of feelings
From a void of tears
From a void of hope

From a void left by absence
From a void left by time
From a void left by love
From a void full of feelings
From a void drowned in tears
From a void of muting hope

This song is for all you liars
and that fucking smile on your face
that sparkle in your eyes
blinding us from your demons inside
the ones that you deny
while I convince myself you lie

This song is for all you lovers
and that fucking smile on your face
that sparkle in your eyes
blinding us from your demons inside
the ones I see you want to hide
To survive, I convinced myself you lie
You were unable to cope with your own life
You destroyed yourself while pretending to fight
Always needing to prove you were right
To cover the guilt that held you so tight

I don't care about your ideal life
I don't care about your mean mind
I won't wait for your sudden attacks
I won't surrender and I'll fight back
I'll let the fire burn my hopes
I'll feed my ego until I choke
I'll leave the hate exploding outside
I'll laugh in the end at your evil smile

I let you back in, so many times
What I always feared was more than a doubt
You always knew where to find the sore
while sitting behind that slammed door

I don't care about your ideal life
I don't care about your mean mind
I won't wait for your sudden attacks
I won't surrender and I'll fight back
I'll let the fire burn my hopes
I'll feed my ego until I choke
I'll leave the hate exploding outside
I'll laugh in the end at your evil smile

I always knew the moment would come
when I'd let you go and I'd stare at these walls
falling asleep unable to stand
the fullness of silence
the touch of your hands

But I'll let the fire burn my hopes
I'll feed my ego until I choke
I'll let the my anger explode with bile
I'll turn away one last time your evil smile

It takes a lot of pain
to close my eyes
It takes a lot of pain
to walk away
It takes a lot of pain
to leave you there
It takes a lot of pain
to fight despair
I wont be begging anymore
I wont annoy you anymore
I wont be asking anymore
I wont be around you anymore
I wont defend you anymore
I wont hold hands anymore
I wont…


scintilla
A scintilla sparked in my soul
I don’t know how it started on its own
It didn't set my heart on fire
Maybe it will, now I know you're a liar

Our love was beautiful and cold
like that brisk white winter dawn
when the innocence melted like snow
even before we came back home

Sunshine is something I should never miss
You made it feel like a stolen bliss
Reaching down to pull me out of your abyss
I know I knew you were never in this

A scintilla sparks in my soul
I don’t know how it starts on its own
I'll make sure there's wood for the fire
To go through the night and wake up to desire
Afterthoughts


in my fears


I miss the ground


two monkeys
I still feel the glow of this morning light
I wish I could stay, days are so bright
Maybe it's what light is all about
devouring more life, after every knockout

It got so cold in this room
like the white outside even tears became snow
I looked at the sleeping trees and cars
everything covered, peaceful and quiet
I'll go outside for a walk to nowhere
to find a place for some joy to spare
Or maybe I should escape into space
so those tears will remain in your eyes

In my fears, in my fears I meet you
You're near, you're near and I hold you
On that pier, on that pier falling into the sea
In my fears, on that pier burnt with our dreams..

The fear everyday of what the next one could be
You reminded me of her
I thought I forgot how it feels
Scared every moment to glimpse on your face
that poisoned cast, prelude to rage

It got so cold in this room
like the white outside even tears became snow
I looked at the sleeping trees and cars
everything covered, peaceful and quiet
I'll go outside for a walk to nowhere
to find a place for some joy to spare
Or maybe I should escape into space
so those tears will remain in your eyes

In my fears, in my fears I meet you
You're near, you're near and I hold you
On that pier, on that pier falling into the sea
In my fears, on that pier burnt with our dreams..

In my fears, in my fears I meet you
You're near, you're near and I hold you
On that pier, on that pier falling into the sea
On that pier..yielding I fall on my knees
I started all over again
and I did it well without a reclaim
and so I enjoyed life calling that name
I thought you meant it was there to stay
but now you're forcing me to let it go away

I miss the ground
I flew till here with nowhere to land
I need a home
I walked from sand to grass through your world
I don't know where to go or where I come from
without a base, the roots
the ground I rebuilt myself on..after the storm

I feel I walked too long
all my strength is gone
I feel my feet burnt
bleeding under the sun

I don't know if I will escape again
or if I still have a place to remain
without looking down at you with disdain
When I was young I believed
there were two monkeys here
Living in the trees between my house and the sea
Someone told me once that was their home
But that their life was sad, because they were alone

No matter how high they were climbing up the trees
I observed them several times from my house here
They were never at the same place
for their eyes to meet
As if they'd lost the will to speak and hear
Their eyes always looking far toward the sea
Their mouths closed in fear of what they could see
Their wishes to meet disappearing with years
Someone says they just lived in fear

Someone told me my house is not there anymore
And the trees are now season tourist shops
I still think about the monkeys and their trees
I tried since then not to look far toward the sea
And so I missed my last change to look around
And all I'm left with is the memory of the sound
Of the sea and their voice in the mute summer sights
Dreaming of going up high enough,
maybe on a kite

No matter how high they were climbing up the trees
I observed them several times from my house here
They were never at the same place
for their eyes to meet
And then they lost the will to speak and hear
Their eyes always looking far toward the sea
Their mouths closed in fear
of what they couldn't see
The memory of them disappearing with years
Someone says they still meet every night at the pier


the anger song


encounter


she
The rain wakes me up
with its noise through the wall
no warmth inside and outside the bleached fog
I still hear the tails of your words from last night
I fear that something is lying down behind..

I miss so much the sunsets at home
the long walks on the seashore

the lights the shadows the tears and pain
misunderstanding what became insane
the voices the fears the eyes and strain
give in to anger and make ourselves unchained

a distant shout woke up a smile on your face
you bit your lips and your eyes changed
scared by another ride on your merry go round
another tide to discover what is the next bound...

I miss so much the sunsets at home
the long walks on the seashore

the lights the shadows the tears and pain
misunderstanding what became insane
the voices the fears the eyes and strain
give in to anger and make ourselves unchained
I've waited for you
at the airport today
to hear what you wanted to say
I felt you were there
in every voice I heard
I imagined it painless
pleasant out there

But now I know I was wrong
You still lie now that all is gone
It didn't burn what you recalled
I'm glad I didn't feel it at all
Maybe it's time to let things go
Maybe it's time to surrender
To take this plane
and fly away forever

All that hate in your eyes
is like a wave I can't defy
You give your finger
a sign of a never quiet anger
After which all is left is cold
a wing failing to fold

But now I know I was wrong
You still lie now that all is gone
It didn't burn what you recalled
I'm glad I didn't feel it at all
Maybe it's time to let things go
Maybe it's time to surrender
To take this plane
and fly away forever
I grew used
to her sweet breath
and her delicate laugh
I trusted her words
like a child with his mum
And when the dawn came
and she walked away
I lay down on the floor
I felt my back brake

She said I just got mad
She said she'll be alright
She shouted at me
closing the door..
She took back her book
and waited outside
fighting her wish to come back

She said she's got mad
She said it'll be alright
She tried reminding me
how it began..
She gave back my book
and waited outside
crying in the sun

As I woke up your body was moving on me
Your eyes smiling, that glow I still miss..
Your hair and their smell caressing my face
The room fading away
your hands following a trace..

Whispers were raging
our bodies were burning
Every night in my sleep
you become her and she becomes you
That morning your eyes were so bright..
I feel since then I've just become blind


wherever you are


paralysed


afterthought
Despite the anger I felt inside
the strangest thoughts
when I looked behind
I know I was wrong walking away
but I needed the burn
and the sound of my heart again

But the price was too high
and that fury too wild
just missing a place
where days were not passing by
And these tears you're now showing me
all the wounds that you didn't see
the only reason I walked away
was for you to not hear what I said

I wish it wouldn't hurt again
so much strain I can barely stand
If we only could wipe the phrases we said
forgiving ourselves and laughing again

We'll fly over the sea
and we'll dive into our dreams
and we'll fall asleep
watching the rain feeding trees
And we'll run side by side
leaving traces behind
laughing out loud at our previous attempts
We'll be walking outside
when the first snow starts falling down
and we'll be here and now
together at last..wherever you are
The flow of consciousness
goes away with a compromise
for each endless hope destroyed
there never was another one to raise
I always looked only into me
or at the horizons away from here
A foolish illusion feeding itself
of something better and nothing to dwell
I was always the solution of my faint belief
the cause, the flame, the wind feeding it

This is the last letter I'll write
tomorrow I'll be in a new life
otherwise I could think it's not real
just the same film on the same reel
This empty cold fear
the same thoughts disappear
I'll stay but I can't realize
are you still there?
am I paralysed?

C'e' una strada vicino casa d'infanzia
che non percorrero' piu'
un libro nella mia stanza
che non apriro' piu'
C'e' una voce
che non potro' piu' ascoltare
una frase mai detta
che non potro' piu' dedicare
Ci sono persone
che non potro' far tornare
luoghi in cui
non potro' piu' camminare
Ci sono amici
che non potro' piu' abbracciare
sensazioni che
vorro' sempre ricercare
Ci sono occhi
che potro' solo ricordare
cose che
potro' solo immaginare

C'e' una porta
che ho chiuso per sempre
senza neanche pensare
c'erano cose dietro
che non potro' mai ricordare
A break in the pain
a cold blurred sight
the way back home
in the quiet night

I tried to forget
to sleep keeping warm
taking my steps
into the unknown

I went with the flow
forgetting your voice
in the blindness and folly
of a faint fickle joy



At The Pier


a new start


the anger song


two monkeys
My sight is faint, my hearing is gone
it always tries to catch me off guard
But I'm glad my eyes are closed now
to not see or hear the house crumbling down

I'll come downstairs chasing your voice
And I'll find you there reading a book
The light through the windows filling the room
The shell of solitude starting to crack
I'll kiss you on the lips and our time will be back

It grew between us when I was blind by your light
it screams against me behind its fierce eyes
It never matters how hard the strain
the beast runs towards me hungry in its pain
Biting and scratching mistaking its fears
looking to escape with eyes full of tears
I'll come downstairs chasing your voice
And I'll find you there singing a song
The rain on the windows playing along
The stark inner emptiness falling apart
I'll kiss you on the lips and our time will start
The rain wakes me up
with its noise through the wall
no warmth inside and outside the bleached fog
I still hear the tails of your words from last night
I fear that something is lying down behind..

I miss so much the sunsets at home
the long walks on the seashore

the lights the shadows the tears and pain
misunderstanding what became insane
the voices the fears the eyes and strain
give in to anger and make ourselves unchained

a distant shout woke up a smile on your face
you bit your lips and your eyes changed
scared by another ride on your merry go round
another tide to discover what is the next bound...

I miss so much the sunsets at home
the long walks on the seashore

the lights the shadows the tears and pain
misunderstanding what became insane
the voices the fears the eyes and strain
give in to anger and make ourselves unchained
When I was young I believed
there were two monkeys here
Living in the trees between my house and the sea
Someone told me once that was their home
But that their life was sad, because they were alone

No matter how high they were climbing up the trees
I observed them several times from my house here
They were never at the same place
for their eyes to meet
As if they'd lost the will to speak and hear
Their eyes always looking far toward the sea
Their mouths closed in fear of what they could see
Their wishes to meet disappearing with years
Someone says they just lived in fear

Someone told me my house is not there anymore
And the trees are now season tourist shops
I still think about the monkeys and their trees
I tried since then not to look far toward the sea
And so I missed my last change to look around
And all I'm left with is the memory of the sound
Of the sea and their voice in the mute summer sights
Dreaming of going up high enough,
maybe on a kite

No matter how high they were climbing up the trees
I observed them several times from my house here
They were never at the same place
for their eyes to meet
And then they lost the will to speak and hear
Their eyes always looking far toward the sea
Their mouths closed in fear
of what they couldn't see
The memory of them disappearing with years
Someone says they still meet every night at the pier



A Sense Of Loss


some warmth into this chill


fading silently


tender claim
A cold routine to lie in
a growing apathy killing me
misunderstanding all the way
as the darkness grew day by day
to dicover the fragility
unconscious, unconstant gravity
an unmoving, dirty rain
our quiet and sterile air

You're slowly burning me
you're slowly killing me
dropping bombs from your throat
each bomb falls into my heart
burning everything between
destroying everything within
but the explosion will arrive
..and I'll kill you at last..
it's the cost of your revenge
and I'll pay again your bill
selling out my own solitude
for some warmth into this chill


Staring at the same sight
through these new different eyes
it makes lighter every step
it makes lighter every fight
Sun emerging through the trees
a glimpse of happiness growing free
all inside bringing life
I'm the antidote
to your invisible bane

You're slowly burning me
you're slowly killing me
dropping bombs from your throat
each bomb falls into my heart
burning everything between
destroying everything within
but the explosion will arrive
..and I'll kill you at last..
it's the cost of your revenge
but I'll pay again my bill
selling out my own solitude
for some warmth into this chill
we used to talk so long
about the things to come
nights flowed into the sea
smiling and feeling free
your eyes too deep to lie
to moments passing by
inviting me near you to see
you started silently

we were lying in the sand
you were holding my hand
you were playing in the sea
always smiling at me
then you fell into the dark
moving and waving your arms
I call your name into my sleep
I'm lying to me


we use to talk so long
about the moments gone
you always tried to melt my pain
love without restraint
your eyes too clear to lie
the friends surrounding smile
inviting me near you to see
we're fading silently

we were lying in the sand
you were holding my hand
you were playing in the sea
always smiling at me
then you fell into the dark
moving and waving your arms
call my name into your sleep
I still hope you'll be here
going up this stair
sounds come out of nowhere
it's your voice speaking low
it's my voice fading slow

I wish to wake up
and still speak your name
your sad, beautiful eyes
and their tender claim

all the meaningless words on the mobile phone
and the endless wait for a new dawn
I'll wait and stare
wherever everyone else would never stare


I wish to be somewhere else
start again and forget
from above and below
what I learned and thought

you'll never find me
twice in the same view
together with you
in all things we do

all the meaningless words on the mobile phone
and the endless wait for a new dawn
I'll wait and stare
wherever everyone else would never stare

all the meaningless words on the mobile phone
and the endless wait for a new dawn
after our own sunset


my apology


constant contrast


winter will come
depending on what I should feel
on the way on the day I decided to leave
remembering places
where we walked
before

remembering time
when we were in love
draining moods every day
waiting for my drug..

did you ever feel the same?
did I say goodbye?

the wonder flowing slow
the bridges falling down
the empty spaces
of your hate

surrounding walls
you create
do you see me?
please, this is my apology..

it's the way we are now
our winter will come
do you feel the same now?
did I say goodbye?

it's the way we are now
our winter will come
did you ever feel the same?
did I say goodbye?
every morning my self destruction grows
days and days asleep
to change the script of this show
the constant contrast too deep
facing the loss from that day, 19 years ago

small workers inside and around
destroying and building again
on more solid ground
I'm leaving you now
departing from here
to avoid admitting that pain
is writing and singing your name

I lived a different world
a different life
not me
dreaming every day
every night
how happy I could be
I heard my ears blown away
the music louder than silence in me

I tried to balance accounts of my life
but a plain blank sheet is all that remained
it's the obsession for desperate hope
for something I couldn't cope
I still hit my head against the wall
'cause I'm so scared to lose your love

but I'm leaving you now
departing from here
to avoid admitting that pain
is writing and singing your name
dark clouds
away and over again
falling leaves
moved by air
a wind from far suddenly appeared
sounds from the sky
in my ears

a well known smell all around in the air
silently...suggesting...invisibly it started to rain
your silence louder than words from your mouth
and the future declined
day after day, month after month
through the maze of your mind
infecting our path with several mines
I know I was wishing to escape
but I fell through the holes I create
it's a pleasing feel to touch your skin
to be here, with you, breathing again


like thousands windows on the infinite time
in the dark sky the stars light shines
bringing us the story of the time before the start
of dead and born worlds
of planets and stars

like thousands windows on the infinite time
in the dark sky the stars light shines
of dying and born worlds
of planets and stars

the sun on the sea
the reasons to fear
the silence that grows
the hate growing slow
the gap between us
the warmth leaving us

we see what we did
the places we lived
your voice speaking low
my voice leaving noise
the phone in your hand
your path to the end

we left our thoughts
and things flowing through
the faces of friends
the fire on the sand
the stars in the night
planets and skies

is what you believed
to what disappeared
already in the dark
I'm dying in your heart
the summer has gone
and winter will come

it arrived...and left us behind



Lightdark
Disc 1


places remained


the misplay


from silence to noise
I saw you outside in your own reflection
looking for friends without caution
they asked you to try again
you had to stop, but facts remained

you can say I was loosing my fight
you can say I was wrong and you were right
you were lying and keeping away
all the feelings you always complained
you can say you were loosing your mind
you can say you were feeling behind
you were looking for places around
falling down until you hitted the ground

solding out all the emotions
you pictured your life without caption
can't stop this because of the flow, the days,
the options and feels
the way you always deceive

you can say I was loosing my fight
you can say I was wrong and you were right
you were lying and keeping away
all the feelings you always complained
you can say you were loosing your mind
you can say you were feeling behind
you were looking for places remained
confusing yourself in the rain
screen blinking bright and tired
like broken ice in thousand forms
reflecting voices we just ignored
now fingers type cold and slow
last row after last row

today is grey outside the windows
and the wind is breaking words and breath
we should have know it's a compromise
now the snow flakes fall from the skies
covering sounds while your echo dies

you came to me and asked why
I'm not with you if even you tried
I'm not with you every new day
I cannot say I can't explain
I felt constrained by your misplay
I woke up with your voice
I can't see your face
through the door you entered by

when you say you're not here
when you say you won't hear
laying down on the beach of youth

you should know all the hate
in the nights we escaped by
all the love and revenge

lands below passing by
trashing all the locks and chains
you should know what I know
it's a struggle to let you go



outside the rain
in the morning glow, filling roads
something flows around melting pain
always here when it starts to rain

it's hard to say
the sacrifice
the open windows on the spring air
but silence here has found it's way to stay

the sound of your voice
your face, flowers and sun
I still see your lips moving air
but I'm not here and you're not there



it's hard to say
the sacrifice
the open windows on the spring air
but silence here has found it's way to stay

the sound of your voice
your face, flowers and sun
I still see your lips moving,
I still hear your silence and noise


someone starts to fade away


kites


lightdark
Finds himself caught
too many times
Limited thoughts,
compromised lines

When his eyes close,
when the walls fall,
Everyone knows
that he still hears your call

Someone starts to fade away
(when the walls fall,
he still hears your call)

When his eyes close,
when the dream stalls,
Everyone knows
that he's nowhere to fall

The smell on his clothes
the chill in the air
The feelings that grow,
but are too much to bear

Someone starts to fade away
(when the walls fall,
he still hears your call)
paths divided on the edge
defend yourself and kill the rest
it's your rule to survive
turn your head and keep your half

'flowers waving in my childish fields
trains passing by far on the rails
kites were flying high in the sky
it was my game, before that night..
your dresses on the bed
walls deforming, words unsaid
glasses crushing in the night
I was terrified..'

'it's not a matter you'll pay for,
don't take on so' you said on telephone
I'm not angry, I'm now aware
I'm just away, you'll never know where

'flowers waving in my childish fields
trains passing by far on the rails
kites were flying high in the sky
it was my game, before that night..
my dresses on the bed
walls deforming, words unsaid
glasses crushing in the night
I was terrified..'

your dresses on the bed
walls deforming, words unsaid
I didn't want to hear your cry
can you forgive me for that night?
I should have kept you tight..
now I'm thinking again
at your poison in vein
at the days passing by
now I'm lost in the night
I can see you in the dim light
and this house is so quiet
I can hear you walking outside
I still see you falling asleep
you left winning your fight

I remember the light
when we walked in the night
and the cold on the street
all the food you won't eat
and the silence you broke
with the sound of your steps
all the dreams that we made
all the times that we played

then that morning arrived
I was ready to go
but you failed to start
I just knew what I saw
I was feeling my legs
disappearing like yours
sliding down on the floor
trying to reach for the door

you were lying on the floor
can't standup anymore..
now I'm walking alone
and the nights are so long
but we'll meet in the skies
and I'll look in your eyes
I still cry in my bed
wish you here with your smell

it's the lightdark
it's the lightdark
..lightdark..
..lightdark..


Disc 2


cold afterall


you said 'I am...'
after walks on the strand
and your hand in his hand
things change, and so your smile
sounds right under our own lies

is the joke of our past
looking for when it will last
and your words and your screams
are you ready to come back again?

lost the spell of voice and smell
all the words are faint and gone
what at last do you want?
a new cause to live or to be mad for?
now the silence is so long..
in the sky of me and you
it's cold afterall

is the joke of our past
looking for when it will last
and your words and your screams
are you ready to come back again?
I can see you from the hall
leaving me in the crowd alone..
all the things that you said
spin around in this desolate land..

now the rain has fallen
and you smiled at my face..
are you ready to come back again?
from door to door
regret the past
the ones we closed
the wait at last
the walls of hate
the time dilates..
this night will pass?
the skyes will turn?
the sun will set?
..the morning comes

don't stop fighting me
don't stop feeling me
don't stop hurting me
don't stop reminding me..
..you said 'I am..'


shells full of love
and your darkest thoughts
enlightened and still
through the swirling clouds
melting slowly
in your sweetest laughs
wondering how
you reached me here
..you knock at my door
your wishes unclear

don't stop fighting me
don't stop feeling me
don't stop haunting me
don't stop reminding me..
..you said 'I am..'



Sol29


in the white air


wearing lies on your lips


overloaded
I remember you watching through the window
face at the cold air
the snow falling mute and cold from the sky
I remember you playing outside
in the white air
the door closing slow on the cold stairs
open your door and I'll tell you
the story of a life flowing away
staring at the window
face in the cold air
I crossed the time, one last time
don't go away, I'm fine..
we had so many things to say
why did you cannot stay?
I knew it has to be so
where the hell did you go?
turning the key in the lock of the door
a sound that I know, played before
the cat from the path stares at me laughing
going upstairs darkness is falling
in the quiet of the evening walking down the streets
I can see you wearing lies on your lips
days go by, minutes and hours, fading away
tomorrow morning will we still have something to say?
I taste all my loneliness sat in a room
killing the one who drove her to the doom
I shout in my head through the noise of this maze
she slows it all down smashing my face
in the quiet of the evening walking down the streets
I can see you wearing lies on your lips
days go by, minutes and hours, fading away
tomorrow morning will we still have something to say
I wake up in the night
watching pictures on the wall
of a past I always feel I never saw
another day is coming out
while lights flow fast on the road
spending days at the phone
searching what is missing and gone
waiting the day
when nothing is yet become
coming back home I can feel
desolation in my mind
it's cold in the car but I'm darker inside
counting hours to the end of the day
I search a place to hide
spending days at the phone
searching what is missing and gone
waiting the day
when nothing is yet become


the broken parts


idle end


hope for the future
so here we are after all those years
and I'm looking again in those eyes
this autumn sea waited for us
we'll never come back
it seems too late, too far
it seems too cold
walking down these stairs outside is morning
I think I never thought it could happen
outside is morning now that things passed through
now I'm again in you
remember moments that last night
all the things we waved goodbye
come out and walk
into this fading night
gaze at the sun
in this fluttering sight
I took her by hand and said
don't move so fast
a moment is short
..and gone
music won't las
I'm just tired of staying here
oppressed by time going by and growing old
I'm just not smiling since too much time
waiting to leave or to die
and joy is gone weeping away cracks of time
all this pain I embrace inside
going up the river of time
I'm waiting to become a child
and I'll hold on in this dark noisy room
and I'll clean up this fucked mind
there's just too much darkness in my disease
looking for happiness into the falling leaves
I would smash this starkness with the hope for the future
encountering me in a sunny day
"Hello how're you?" I would say
all me shining inside
like when I was a boy


the world is outside
falling down the outside world
you can distinguish every single edge
in the shape of their breath
taking pictures of a summertime again
looking for lost places I felt this before
where unheard voices remain
of an happy day
when time like a sleepwalker
flows around hot and cold
smelling the air
spinning around to hide
when the world is outside
you can distinguish every single edge
in the shape of their breath
taking pictures of a summertime again


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